Regret.

"Regret" - Victor Lu
Download mp3 here.

Like I mentioned a couple of posts ago, I've been writing a lot since I got back from my trip -- at least enough bars to fill several songs, and I promised I would definitely share them with everyone once I felt ready. I actually debated and second guessed myself a lot on whether to release this track or not, and in the end I chose to because it was the one that meant the most to me. It's pretty personal and addresses a lot of issues that I pretty much swept under the rug over the last few years and decided to avoid talking about. It's also the first song I've completely written, recorded and released by myself in almost three years. The inspiration for this one came to me one night and I wrote it all in one sitting and recorded it the next day. I will say this -- I completely underestimated the difficulty in rapping for over 3 minutes straight without making a mistake. There are a few rough patches but out of the 40-some takes I took, this was the only complete one.

Hindsight is always 20/20, and because of that, regret is always going to be something that everyone has to live with. What I learned is that the only way to overcome regret is to take ownership of your mistakes and to become accountable to what you've been avoiding all along. Then, we just need to have the strength and peace with ourselves to let go of the past, embrace the present and anticipate the future.

For those that may feel offended by the content, I first want to apologize, and then I want to challenge you to understand the meaning behind the lyrics. If you still can't get it, then grow up -- I could care less what you think in the end. Don't get it twisted, for once I didn't do this for anyone else. This one's purely for me.