Conversation (1).

AL: Like I said, it's a bad foundation already, like it was built with sand. I don't know what you were hoping for, but I can honestly say it was the wrong way to go since day one.

Me: Maybe I should stop being so serious and chasing commitment and just fool around.

AL: I've never really liked the "whatever I can get" mentality, but that's just me. You decide for yourself what you want.

Me: I'm always looking for something serious but other parties never want the same things.

AL: Then just be patient until the right one comes along. Be a rock, don't be a straw in the field that goes wherever the wind blows it.

Me: You have to admit that being a rock has brought me a ton of drama. Sometimes I just want to take the easy way out. It sounds dumb but calling every bad experience a lesson is kind of sad.

AL: Then bring on the drama until you find the right one.

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I never thought I would be that guy, but what is important is that I made peace with myself and the person I care about for what I've done, and now I can finally start sorting out how I really feel. Despite everything, I know the people we were back then are still there somewhere; we just have to look for them at our own pace.

It was an experience.