I feel like if I just slowed down to think about this amidst all the uncertainty, I'd come to the conclusion that perhaps my decision and my subsequent actions are completely illogical, emotion-based and wrong.
And maybe a part of me is afraid of actually reaching that conclusion so I just go full steam ahead and not allow myself to second-guess what I'm really doing and why. But every once in a while, I just can't seem to escape the creeping doubt that chases me through my mind when my guard is down, or the voices that try to convince me to overthink and overanalyze every small occurrence as subtlety and nuance. There are days when I look at myself in the mirror and I catch myself questioning my character, intelligence and drive;
Do you call that being wishful or just being naive?
Being strong or just being stupid?
Being determined or just being blind?
God, what am I really doing?
wishful, strong and determined... sounds like the ingredient of an overachiever - chill, bet you half the people you work with are like that.
ReplyDeleteOh no... could you still be stuck on the emotional embarrassment of your little dance... perhaps that's the latent cause of your self doubt? lol.